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<br/>is this delusion we’re talking or are you fucking with me?<br/>do<br/>not <br/>come <br/>around <br/>us here, we <br/>do not want you near, <br/>where, yes, the wind still howls <br/>and maintains a bitter bite but it’s <br/>worth the sting to feel her clean air cling <br/>to and circle within our lungs, fulfilling our need <br/>for this sustenance you sadistically withheld from us.<br/>it<br/>was<br/>only in <br/>the knick <br/>of time, that <br/>I realized you’d <br/>stolen mine, which <br/>originally was meant to <br/>be shared with her, not wasted by me, <br/>but it’s not too late, though it almost was,<br/>we<br/>were<br/>freed the<br/>moment I <br/>walked and as I <br/>did, I ensured I spat all <br/>your parts out to make room <br/>for the good in life, like my peace and <br/>my daughter, who is the center of my heart — again <br/>we<br/>inhale <br/>as long, as slow, <br/>as shallow, and as deep <br/>as we damn well please now— and I’m <br/>gaining more stature and building up speed;<br/>from my distant position, your body seems to be <br/>shifting, perhaps now you are the shrinking one, and <br/>I <br/>know <br/>distance<br/>makes objects <br/>seem smaller than <br/>they are, but this can’t <br/>be explained away by some <br/>illusion;I saw the truth up close <br/>to your face in the grocery store. 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