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I have more on my plate than I can keep up with! Here’s the downlow:</p> <p>* I have a serious partner who I’ve been with for a year. We’re moving in together this weekend… in another NJ. Whoa.</p> <p>* Hoping to be a full-time student in the fall.</p> <p>* A bunch of new projects I’m working on. Organizing things, writing things, creating things. Cool stuff.</p> <p>More than I could ever write about really… But I wanted to just give a little update to let you know I’m still here. Hoping to write more when I have the chance. In the meantime, here is the view from my window the other day:</p> <p><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/?action=view&current=IMG_1912.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_1912.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"/></a></p> <p><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/?action=view&current=IMG_1913.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_1913.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"/></a></p> <p>They were frolicking near my garlic patch. And let me tell you, that fawn sure was cute… Too bad it’ll grow up to be a garden-wrecking monster like it’s mommy.</p> <p>Yesterday I saw a fawn about that size galloping down a sidewalk in the village. Hope it found its way home.</p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2008/06/18/are-you-still-there/#comments" title="Comment on Are you still there?">→ 1 Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/about-me/" title="View all posts in about me" rel="category tag">about me</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/nature/" title="View all posts in nature" rel="category tag">nature</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/photographs/" title="View all posts in photographs" rel="category tag">photographs</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-38" class="post-38 post type-post hentry category-uncategorized"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/28/38/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to "></a></h2> <h4>November 28, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/28/38/#comments" title="Comment on ">1 Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p><b>Speechless</b><br/> <span style="text-align:center; display: block;"><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/BF5yJklH_jA&rel=1&fs=1&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1"/> <param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"/> <param name="wmode" value="opaque"/> <embed src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710oe_/http://www.youtube.com/v/BF5yJklH_jA&rel=1&fs=1&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="350" wmode="opaque"></embed> </object></span></p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/28/38/#comments" title="Comment on ">→ 1 Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/category/uncategorized/" title="View all posts in Uncategorized" rel="category tag">Uncategorized</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-37" class="post-37 post type-post hentry category-country-living category-nature category-photographs"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/09/under-water/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to Under Water">Under Water</a></h2> <h4>November 9, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/09/under-water/#comments" title="Comment on Under Water">1 Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>It’s November. I haven’t written in ages. I apologize if some of you might have gotten re-sent some old posts because I went in and edited them. I haven’t been writing because I’m not sure what I feel comfortable talking about this publicly. And most of all, because I’ve been really busy with school and work and life and dating and…. life. I am in a state of overwhelm much of the time, not just because of being busy but also lack of sleep and poor time management. Things are good, though. The fall here hasn’t been particularly spectacular, because it didn’t get cold enough early enough. So the colors have been muted, but still beautiful.</p> <p>Here are two photograph froms the <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ashokan_Reservoir">Ashokan Reservoir</a> which is about a 30 minute drive from here. I took them when my dad and I went hiking a few weeks ago. I find it so haunting that under all this water lies the remains of several towns that were flooded to to provide New York City with their drinking water. If you live in New York City and want to know where your water comes from and how it came to be, definitely check out that link. According to <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://bearsystems.com/ashokan/ashokan.htm">one source</a>, “nine villages were either removed or obliterated forever. These included West Hurley, Ashton, Glenford, Brown’s Station, Olive Bridge, Brodhead, Shokan, West Shokan and Boiceville.” I also found a page that’s a <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://bearsystems.com/losttowns/lost.html">memorial to the towns that were sacrificed for New York City</a>. Just one of many little-known ways that people in rural areas have always paid the price for city living.</p> <p><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_1336.jpg" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0"/></a></p> <p><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_1330.jpg" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0"/></a></p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/11/09/under-water/#comments" title="Comment on Under Water">→ 1 Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/country-living/" title="View all posts in country living" rel="category tag">country living</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/nature/" title="View all posts in nature" rel="category tag">nature</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/photographs/" title="View all posts in photographs" rel="category tag">photographs</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-36" class="post-36 post type-post hentry category-friends category-about-me category-country-living category-gratitude category-hometown category-photographs category-shabbat"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/10/12/gratitude/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to Gratitude">Gratitude</a></h2> <h4>October 12, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/10/12/gratitude/#comments" title="Comment on Gratitude">1 Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>One way I deal with days when I’m bitter and sad is by forcing myself to grudgingly write gratitude lists. Here’s mine for today:</p> <ol> <li> I am so glad that it’s almost Shabbat. This week has sucked, and now it’s almost over.</li> <li>The pinched nerve in my shoulder has resolved itself, sparing me more sleepless nights, expensive copays and stressful doctor visits.</li> <li>It’s fall! Really and truly fall – The trees are golden and red and orange and I’m so happy to be in the northeast right now.</li> <li>The <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.smallfarmexpo.org/">Small Farm & Rural Living Expo</a> is this weekend and I have someone to go with.</li> <li>I don’t have to go into town to the post office and deal with all the fall tourist traffic, because there’s now a tiny little rural post office just a few miles down the road in the other direction. I don’t have to go through town traffic to buy last-minute Shabbat groceries either, because there’s a farmers’ market on my way to aforementioned post office.</li> <li>My trip to CA was hard, but it was also really good. I have wonderful, wonderful friends.</li> <li>I passed my first Biology exam.</li> <li>I ate my first balance meal in days today. Collard greens make me feel like I’m going to be okay.</li> <li>I am a lucky fool.</li> <li>I think I’m joining a book club.</li> <li>I adore Grace Jones. Especially the song “Breakdown.”</li> <li>My garden is still producing like crazy. I grew this beet and it’s really pretty:</li> <p style="text-align:center;"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_1272.jpg"/></p> <li>Thirteen is my lucky number.</li> </ol> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/10/12/gratitude/#comments" title="Comment on Gratitude">→ 1 Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/friends/" title="View all posts in Friends" rel="category tag">Friends</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/about-me/" title="View all posts in about me" rel="category tag">about me</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/country-living/" title="View all posts in country living" rel="category tag">country living</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/gratitude/" title="View all posts in gratitude" rel="category tag">gratitude</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/hometown/" title="View all posts in hometown" rel="category tag">hometown</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/photographs/" title="View all posts in photographs" rel="category tag">photographs</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/shabbat/" title="View all posts in shabbat" rel="category tag">shabbat</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-34" class="post-34 post type-post hentry category-friends category-uncategorized category-about-me category-cooking category-gardening category-gender category-judaism category-nature category-queer category-shabbat"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/august/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to August.">August.</a></h2> <h4>August 20, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/august/#comments" title="Comment on August.">6 Comments</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>Other things that have been going on:</p> <ul> <li> My birthday came and went last week. My parents took me out for a fabulous dinner and I found myself able to relax and enjoy it enough to stop feeling so bummed out that all my Oakland friends weren’t here to celebrate with me.</li> <li>My friend E and her lovely boyfriend M visited from Oakland the day after I got back from the National Havurah Committee Summer Institute. It was so fun showing them the Hudson Valley and seeing them enjoy some time in the country after their hectic week touring New York City.</li> <li>E and M and myself hiked around <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.lakeminnewaska.org/photos/displayimage.php?album=49&pos=2">Lake Minnewaska</a>. That was a huge accomplishment for me, because it’s been several years since I’ve been able to do any significant hiking due to my constant physical pain. It was triumphant, and due in no small part to the fabulous care I’ve been giving my body and the miraculous medication I have been on for 6 months now. I hope this is only the beginning of my getting back into hiking and enjoying nature in a more active way.</li> <li>I am getting ready to go back to school on Monday – For the first time in 8 years, I will be a student in a significant way (i.e. taking more than one class at a time).</li> <li>Cherry tomatoes and swiss chard are the major harvests right now, with some cucumbers thrown in there. My edamame are doing well – I am actually going to be able to harvest a few soon. I also need to get out there and harvest some collard greens. I have been sadly neglecting my garden but I’m getting ready to put in fall crops, which will be fun.</li> <li>Spent Shabbat with Chab*d here. It was nice, until a guest (not the Rabbi or Rebbetzin) went on a homophobic tirade. I almost walked out, but chose not to. Homophobic assholes suck, but I won’t let them ruin my day. I found the Rabbi and his wife very warm and kind and more open-minded than I expected, and the food was wonderful. I will probably return at some point.</li> <li>Found a synagogue that I think I like – A Conservative congregation that was very warm and welcoming. I don’t want to get too excited since I only attended once, but it seems like something closer to what I’ve been looking for than any of the shuls I’ve attended here yet.</li> <li>Today I am going to try cooking gluten-free, kosher Jamaican-inspired meat patties! The weather has been so cool that I’ve gotten excited about cooking again.</li> <li>People who know me will be surprised and/or amused to know that I put on a skirt for the first time in about 11 years on Friday for my dinner at Chab*d house. It was a real head-trip, gender-wise. It was also kind of fun, and less uncomfortable than I’d anticipated. I am trying to be less scared of gender fluidity, and more comfortable expressing both the masculine and feminine parts of myself. It was a fascinating experiment for me that showed me a lot about myself. And OK, it was also just plain bizarre.</li> <li>My newest time-waster is looking at Hudson Valley real estate listings online. Especially listings for cheap land in this area.</li> </ul> <p>Mmm… leafy greens (dinosaur kale, with rainbow chard in the background):</p> <p style="text-align:center;"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_0999.jpg"/></p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/august/#comments" title="Comment on August.">→ 6 Comments</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/friends/" title="View all posts in Friends" rel="category tag">Friends</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/about-me/" title="View all posts in about me" rel="category tag">about me</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/cooking/" title="View all posts in cooking" rel="category tag">cooking</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/gardening/" title="View all posts in gardening" rel="category tag">gardening</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/gender/" title="View all posts in gender" rel="category tag">gender</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/judaism/" title="View all posts in judaism" rel="category tag">judaism</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/nature/" title="View all posts in nature" rel="category tag">nature</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/queer/" title="View all posts in queer" rel="category tag">queer</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/shabbat/" title="View all posts in shabbat" rel="category tag">shabbat</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-33" class="post-33 post type-post hentry category-uncategorized category-family category-judaism category-shabbat category-spirituality"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/havdalah-marking-the-difference/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to Havdalah: Marking the Difference">Havdalah: Marking the Difference</a></h2> <h4>August 20, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/havdalah-marking-the-difference/#respond" title="Comment on Havdalah: Marking the Difference">Leave a Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>I love that my parents like joining with me in doing <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/jsource/Judaism/havdalah.html">Havdalah</a> on Saturday nights. They do not observe Shabbat the way that I do, but since moving back they have enjoyed marking of the ending and beginning of the week with me. They share in the wine we bless and my mother has taken to giving me her own improvised blessing for a good week. I love how happy it made my mom when I first invited her to do Havdalah with me when I moved home. She loves the (Debbie Freedman?) tune that she knows for the prayers, so we do that one. I showed my mom how to hold her hands up to the light of the candle, to notice the shadows of our curved fingers on our palms, and the glow of the light through our fingertips, acknowledging the contrast of light and dark just as we mark the difference between Shabbat and the rest of the week week, and the separation of holy from secular. My folks have had a <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.shopisraeltoday.com/photos/Candles/C-havdalah%2025.jpg">Havdalah candle</a> they bought in Israel hanging on the wall for years and never used it – Now it gets shorter and shorter every week. “I knew we bought it for a reason,” my mom says.</p> <p>Living with my family is challenging at times. Mostly it is hard on my self-esteem, that as an independent adult who has been living on their own since the age of 16, life put me in a position to have to make the choice to move in with my parents. I can’t stand needing anything from them. I take it too personally and at times assume it means I have failed in some way, despite the fact that rationally I know that the health problems that made this necessary are out of my control. There are also familial conflicts, and as is to be expected, some frustration with the lack of privacy and personal space. But I am also trying to find the small joys in living in a house as a family. One of them is rituals. When I move out in a few months I will miss having people to do Havdalah with. I wonder if my parents will hang the Havdalah candle back up on the wall or if they will occasionally find the time to do this ritual together, marking the ending of Shabbat and the beginning of a new week.</p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/20/havdalah-marking-the-difference/#respond" title="Comment on Havdalah: Marking the Difference">→ Leave a Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/family/" title="View all posts in family" rel="category tag">family</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/judaism/" title="View all posts in judaism" rel="category tag">judaism</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/shabbat/" title="View all posts in shabbat" rel="category tag">shabbat</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/spirituality/" title="View all posts in spirituality" rel="category tag">spirituality</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-32" class="post-32 post type-post hentry category-israel-palestine category-judaism category-prayers-and-praying category-spirituality"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/10/a-dispatch-from-new-hampshire/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to A Dispatch from New Hampshire">A Dispatch from New Hampshire</a></h2> <h4>August 10, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/10/a-dispatch-from-new-hampshire/#respond" title="Comment on A Dispatch from New Hampshire">Leave a Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p> I am writing from Rindge, in beautiful New Hampshire. I wrote in an e-mail to a friend the other day that “New Hampshire is the whitest place I’ve ever been… and I’m not just talking about the people. Even the buildings are all painted white!” And so it is. “<a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Live_Free_or_Die">Live Free or Die</a>” is this state’s motto, and in this libertarian spirit there is no sales tax in New Hampshire – A boon for out of state visitors and a major contributor to the lack of funding available for anti-poverty measures to alleviate the <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.nhpr.org/node/11126">quickly growing child poverty rate</a>. Meanwhile, I’m in the midst of a week spent with 300 other progressive Jews on a college campus in the southern part of the state. This is my first time attending the National Havurah Committee’s Summer Institute. The classes alone make the cost more than worthwhile. I’m studying <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talmud">Talmud</a> and Torah, and engaging in dialog about creating and sustaining independent Jewish communities.</p> <p>The hardest thing for me here is listening to the way some people speak about Palestinians and about the Israel-Palestine conflict – The racism, the entitlement, the apologetics. I am reminded of how much the frustration and anger around this stuff adds an underlying tension, bitterness and distrust to my experience in Jewish spaces (though a good bit less here than other places). Yet I try to listen, and to let go of the need to always have my voice heard.</p> <p>I have gotten some good feedback about how to take the first steps in creating a <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.havurah.org/index.php?section=article&album_id=2&id=13">havurah</a> in the Hudson Valley, if I end up choosing to remain there. Met some of my favorite Jewish bloggers. Learned a lot about text study, inclusiveness and plurality in Jewish community. Been reminded of the chasm between the experience and world-view of young, childless, well-connected and well-educated urban Jews and…. well, everyone else in the Jewish community. Appreciated the ingenuity and commitment of this same demographic. Davened (prayed) in a grove of pine trees, overlooking lush mountains and valleys. Gained clarity about what kind of services I feel comfortable with, and I have pushed my own boundaries. Appreciated my generation. Felt judged for being an “affiliated” Jew. Was accepted and even felt “normal” in my personal expression of my faith and my own balance of traditional/halachic and non-traditional religious values and practices. Been reminded of the importance of intergenerational community. Reflected more clearly on what I sacrificed when I moved back to my (small) east coast hometown from the city I was living in on the West Coast, and what I have gained.</p> <p>I have made some new friends and acquaintances as well as spending time reconnecting with a good friend who’s been in my life for 8 years now. I’m looking forward to spending Shabbos here, but I’m also looking forward to going home and sleeping in my own bed and eating my own food on Sunday. I heard people talk at the beginning of the institute about coming here to get “recharged” for the rest of the year. Now I know what they’re talking about!</p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/10/a-dispatch-from-new-hampshire/#respond" title="Comment on A Dispatch from New Hampshire">→ Leave a Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/israel-palestine/" title="View all posts in israel & palestine" rel="category tag">israel & palestine</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/judaism/" title="View all posts in judaism" rel="category tag">judaism</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/prayers-and-praying/" title="View all posts in prayers and praying" rel="category tag">prayers and praying</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/spirituality/" title="View all posts in spirituality" rel="category tag">spirituality</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-31" class="post-31 post type-post hentry category-uncategorized category-gardening category-judaism"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/05/new-hampshire-bound/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to New Hampshire bound….">New Hampshire bound….</a></h2> <h4>August 5, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/05/new-hampshire-bound/#comments" title="Comment on New Hampshire bound….">1 Comment</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>I’m off to the <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://www.havurah.org/index.php?section=article&album_id=3&PHPSESSID=8c5ab8238e20062e4d329f3589db732a">National Havurah Committee’s Summer Institute</a> in Rindge, NH. A week of prayer, community, learning, socializing and relaxing. Sounds like heaven right about now. This has been a very, very hard week.</p> <p>In the meantime, I leave you with cucumber. I love how squashes and cukes have the shriveled up corpse of the flower they used to be, attached at the end. They push themselves outwards, but stay attached to their former, showier (but less delicious) selves until they are fully formed and ready to eat.</p> <p><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710im_/http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v418/daggerdesigns/IMG_0991.jpg" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0"/></a></p> </div> </div> <p class="tagged"><span class="add_comment"><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/08/05/new-hampshire-bound/#comments" title="Comment on New Hampshire bound….">→ 1 Comment</a></span><strong>Categories:</strong> <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/gardening/" title="View all posts in gardening" rel="category tag">gardening</a> · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://en.wordpress.com/tag/judaism/" title="View all posts in judaism" rel="category tag">judaism</a> </p> </div> <div id="post-29" class="post-29 post type-post hentry category-country-living category-gardening category-nature category-spirituality"> <h2><a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/07/20/theres-something-different-about-broccoli/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to There’s something different about broccoli.">There’s something different about broccoli.</a></h2> <h4>July 20, 2007 · <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20100603052710/http://hineini.wordpress.com/2007/07/20/theres-something-different-about-broccoli/#comments" title="Comment on There’s something different about broccoli.">4 Comments</a></h4> <div class="entry"> <div class="snap_preview"><p>Kale, lettuce, tomatoes – It’s exciting to grow just about any edible plant and have them finally come to maturity and be ready to harvest and eat. But there’s something different about broccoli. Maybe it’s that I had never grown broccoli before this year, even as a kid I don’t remember growing it in our garden. Or maybe it’s that broccoli is my favorite vegetable. Maybe it’s that one day there were what looked like purple-tinted collard greens in my garden and (seemingly) the next day I looked down at them from above and saw a small head of broccoli peeping up from the inside. Whatever the reason, growing broccoli is ten times more exciting than any other vegetable in my garden.</p> <p>Watching broccoli grow makes me unusually aware of the presence of a Higher Power in this universe. There is just something so miraculous about watching little nutrient-packed edible trees full of tiny buds growing from seeds or tiny seedlings. Everything from the purple sheen on the leaves to the way the buds start to flower if you leave the heads on the stalk too long just really blows my mind.</p> <p>I learned some things about growing broccoli this year, though. I learned that if I plant 6 seedlings in mid-May, I will get 6 full-grown about-to-bolt-if-I-don’t-pick’em heads the same exact day in early July. That I cannot leave even one head on the stalk for any longer, so they must all be harvested the same day. While broccoli will last for a while in the fridge, this basically meant I had one good week of amazingly delicious garden-fresh broccoli eating followed by… well, nothing. Back to leafy greens and cucumbers and tomatoes. So for next year (or for this fall, even) it’s going to be all about planting a bunch of seeds each week for a number of weeks or even months, in the basement under grow lights, so I end up with variously sized broccoli plants I can set out when they’re ready so that I have a relatively constant broccoli harvest over a span of time rather than this feast-or-famine thing. And let me just say, when I picked 5 heads and brought them into the house my dad cautioned me not to eat too much broccoli each day because it’d give me the farts (thanks, Dad). Well, he was wrong. Apparently I have a special touch with growing broccoli because mine was all miraculously fart-free. 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