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What is it like for autistic people?</h3></div></a></div><div class="h k"><div class="my mz na nb nc nd ne nf ng nh x"><span class="ic b aq am fi"><div class="hz n ni cr"><div class="n o nn">2d ago<div class="h k j i d"><div class="dm nj nk n o"><div class="dx nl nm n o nn"><div class="ck nk no x gg"></div></div><a class="dx kp nm n o nn" tabindex="-1" rel="noopener follow" href="/invisible-illness/arrested-development-29a29cf3f0f7?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----2-----------------------------------"><div><div class="n" aria-hidden="false"><div class="n o of"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="rgba(109, 110, 110, 1)" viewBox="0 0 16 16"><path fill="#6B6B6B" d="M12.344 11.458A5.28 5.28 0 0 0 14 7.526C14 4.483 11.391 2 8.051 2S2 4.483 2 7.527c0 3.051 2.712 5.526 6.059 5.526a6.6 6.6 0 0 0 1.758-.236q.255.223.554.414c.784.51 1.626.768 2.512.768a.37.37 0 0 0 .355-.214.37.37 0 0 0-.03-.384 4.7 4.7 0 0 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od"></div></div></div></div></div></article></div></div></div><div class="n p"><div class="gm m gn go gp gq"><div class="oe m x"><article class=""><div class="ky x"><div class="m bb"><div class="x"><div class="m x"><div style="position:relative;display:flex" role="link" data-href="https://medium.com/invisible-illness/as-an-autistic-adult-im-bothered-that-aba-still-exists-d7438c9a17b4" tabindex="0"><div class="m kz la lb lc"><div class="n"><div class="ld le lf lg lh n o"><div class="li x"><div><div class="x" aria-hidden="false"><a tabindex="-1" rel="noopener follow" href="/@jael999?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----5-----------------------------------"><div class="x dm"><img alt="Jae L" class="x cg s lj lk gg" src="https://miro.medium.com/v2/resize:fill:40:40/1*VsQR3dTP4Yd6cAFOpQxPoA.jpeg" width="20" height="20" loading="lazy"/><div class="du s x lj lk dx z cv dy"></div></div></a></div></div></div><div><div class="x" aria-hidden="false"><a class="cl ap cm cn co as cp at au av aw fj fk ll n o" rel="noopener follow" href="/@jael999?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----5-----------------------------------"><p class="ic b aq am jd lm je jf ln jg lo ji fz">Jae L</p></a></div></div></div></div><div class="n"><div class="x ek jh"><div class="lr ls lt lu lv lw lx ly lz ma"><a class="cl ap cm cn co as cp at au av aw fj fk fl fm" rel="noopener follow" href="/invisible-illness/as-an-autistic-adult-im-bothered-that-aba-still-exists-d7438c9a17b4?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----5-----------------------------------"><h2 class="ic b mb mc md ih me mf mg mh im mi io ip mj mk is ml mm mn mo mp mq mr ms mt mu jd je jf jg ji fz">As an Autistic Adult, I’m Bothered That ABA Still Exists</h2><div class="mv"><h3 class="ic b jp am jd mw je jf mx jg ji fi">It’s continuing the self-erasure that decades of masking caused me</h3></div></a></div><div class="h k"><div class="my mz na nb nc nd ne nf ng nh x"><span class="ic b aq am fi"><div class="hz n ni cr"><div class="n o nn"><div class="ky n"><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><button class="x cv av at" aria-label="Member-only story"><div class=""><div><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="none" viewBox="0 0 64 64"><path fill="#FFC017" d="m39.637 40.831-5.771 15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1-3.732 0l-5.771-15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.194-1.195L7.298 33.866a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0-3.732l15.87-5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.195-1.194l5.771-15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 3.732 0l5.771 15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.194 1.195l15.871 5.771a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0 3.732l-15.87 5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.195 1.194"></path></svg></div></div></div></button></div></div>4d ago<div class="h k j i d"><div class="dm nj nk n o"><div class="dx nl nm n o nn"><div class="ck nk no x gg"></div></div><a class="dx kp nm n o nn" tabindex="-1" rel="noopener follow" href="/invisible-illness/as-an-autistic-adult-im-bothered-that-aba-still-exists-d7438c9a17b4?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----5-----------------------------------"><div><div class="n" aria-hidden="false"><div class="n o of"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="rgba(109, 110, 110, 1)" viewBox="0 0 16 16"><path fill="#6B6B6B" d="M12.344 11.458A5.28 5.28 0 0 0 14 7.526C14 4.483 11.391 2 8.051 2S2 4.483 2 7.527c0 3.051 2.712 5.526 6.059 5.526a6.6 6.6 0 0 0 1.758-.236q.255.223.554.414c.784.51 1.626.768 2.512.768a.37.37 0 0 0 .355-.214.37.37 0 0 0-.03-.384 4.7 4.7 0 0 1-.857-1.958v.014z"></path></svg><span>19</span></div></div></div></a></div></div></div><div class="n o np nq"><div class="h k j i d"><div><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><span><a class="cl ap cm cn co as cp at au av aw fj fk fl fm" rel="noopener follow" 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I’m Bothered That ABA Still Exists" class="ny hy" src="https://miro.medium.com/v2/da:true/resize:fill:160:106/0*p8JP8Wk-b7CRulYh" width="80" height="53" loading="lazy"/></div><div class="h k"><img alt="As an Autistic Adult, I’m Bothered That ABA Still Exists" class="ny hy" src="https://miro.medium.com/v2/da:true/resize:fill:320:214/0*p8JP8Wk-b7CRulYh" width="160" height="107" loading="lazy"/></div></div></div></div><div class="nz j i d"><span class="ic b aq am fi"><div class="hz n ni cr"><div class="n o nn"><div class="ky n"><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><button class="x cv av at" aria-label="Member-only story"><div class=""><div><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="none" viewBox="0 0 64 64"><path fill="#FFC017" d="m39.637 40.831-5.771 15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1-3.732 0l-5.771-15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.194-1.195L7.298 33.866a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0-3.732l15.87-5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.195-1.194l5.771-15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 3.732 0l5.771 15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.194 1.195l15.871 5.771a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0 3.732l-15.87 5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.195 1.194"></path></svg></div></div></div></button></div></div>4d ago<div class="h k j i d"><div class="dm nj nk n o"><div class="dx nl nm n o nn"><div class="ck nk no x gg"></div></div><a class="dx kp nm n o nn" tabindex="-1" rel="noopener follow" href="/invisible-illness/as-an-autistic-adult-im-bothered-that-aba-still-exists-d7438c9a17b4?source=collection_home_page----b224b324ef5-----5-----------------------------------"><div><div class="n" aria-hidden="false"><div class="n o of"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="rgba(109, 110, 110, 1)" viewBox="0 0 16 16"><path fill="#6B6B6B" d="M12.344 11.458A5.28 5.28 0 0 0 14 7.526C14 4.483 11.391 2 8.051 2S2 4.483 2 7.527c0 3.051 2.712 5.526 6.059 5.526a6.6 6.6 0 0 0 1.758-.236q.255.223.554.414c.784.51 1.626.768 2.512.768a.37.37 0 0 0 .355-.214.37.37 0 0 0-.03-.384 4.7 4.7 0 0 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class="ic b jp am jd mw je jf mx jg ji fi">I know being my friend is complex, and I love you</h3></div></a></div><div class="h k"><div class="my mz na nb nc nd ne nf ng nh x"><span class="ic b aq am fi"><div class="hz n ni cr"><div class="n o nn"><div class="ky n"><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><button class="x cv av at" aria-label="Member-only story"><div class=""><div><div class="ch" aria-hidden="false"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="16" height="16" fill="none" viewBox="0 0 64 64"><path fill="#FFC017" d="m39.637 40.831-5.771 15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1-3.732 0l-5.771-15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.194-1.195L7.298 33.866a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0-3.732l15.87-5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.195-1.194l5.771-15.871a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 3.732 0l5.771 15.87a2.02 2.02 0 0 0 1.194 1.195l15.871 5.771a1.99 1.99 0 0 1 0 3.732l-15.87 5.771a2.02 2.02 0 0 0-1.195 1.194"></path></svg></div></div></div></button></div></div>5d ago<div class="h k j i d"><div class="dm nj nk n o"><div class="dx nl nm n o nn"><div 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