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It is written in first person, but it is a figment of my imagination. It’s what I do.</p></blockquote><h2 id="812e" class="nq nr hd bf ns nt nu dy nv nw nx ea ny nz oa ob oc od oe of og oh oi oj ok ol bk">Part Two</h2><p id="52f7" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx op oq or ia os ot ou nz ov ow ox od oy oz pa oh pb pc pd pe gw bk qg"><span class="l qh qi qj bo qk ql qm qn qo fj">I</span> don’t understand why anyone would strive to become a public figure.</p><p id="ec61" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx qb oq or ia qc ot ou nz qd ow ox od qe oz pa oh qf pc pd pe gw bk">My parents had been flown to Idaho to face kidnapping charges. My brothers and sisters went for the initial court appearance and posted bail, but they weren’t given what would be termed a <em class="qa">friendly</em> homecoming when they returned to town.</p><p id="c4c6" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx qb oq or ia qc ot ou nz qd ow ox od qe oz pa oh qf pc pd pe gw bk">As for me…well, I have been in hiding ever since.</p><p id="7461" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx qb oq or ia qc ot ou nz qd ow ox od qe oz pa oh qf pc pd pe gw bk">The worst of this, for me, has been sending my children to stay with their father so they wouldn’t become the center of attention. That man isn’t good for much, but he whisked the kids off to his mother and sisters immediately.</p><p id="79f2" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx qb oq or ia qc ot ou nz qd ow ox od qe oz pa oh qf pc pd pe gw bk">They are so angry at me. The last place they want to be right now is in Mexico. They’re completely missing the action, stuck out at the ranch as they are.</p><p id="8beb" class="pw-post-body-paragraph om on hd oo b hx qb oq or ia qc ot ou nz qd ow ox od qe oz pa oh qf pc pd pe gw bk">I hate it, but at the same time, I don’t care if they <em class="qa">are </em>angry. 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